bye bye baby
bye bye baby
'bye bye baby' smells like I might never be someone's mom
scent notes | citrus sugar / evergreen / lavender / sagewood / ylang-ylang |
scent profile | light floral / sweet |
scent strength | subtle |
release date | May/1/2023, 8 AM (Manila Time) |
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sad girl story
sad girl story
I was 27 when a faint second line on a test kit changed the course of my life.
The moment that second line appeared - all I could feel was sheer fear. It was the first time that I truly had to confront how I wanted my life to turn out. I can afford to raise a child and I was in a long-term relationship. Being pregnant would not be the worst thing that could happen to me. As a matter of fact, it was what was expected of me.
But it made me look at the person I was with to see if I genuinely believed he was someone I wanted to raise a child with. I had to critically look at my lifestyle, my dreams, and my goals - and ask myself if I 100% wanted the lifetime commitment of being someone’s parent. A few days later, I went to my first therapy session. Six months after, I walked away from that relationship.
My 20s were supposed to be my “selfish” years. I was 21 when I had to take on the role of my mom. Instead of walking in my mother’s shoes with ease, I stumbled and tripped and fell over and over that the wounds have yet to turn into scars still. I always wondered if this kind of life was one my mom would choose for herself if she had known how hard it would be. Because I wasn’t sure if I would even want it for me.
I was 30 when I was advised to seek out a doctor immediately after my annual executive checkup results came out. It turns out my chances at becoming a mom are limited. Not impossible, but it might as well be. I flashback to the relief — and guilt — I felt at 27 when I didn’t end up with a child. And yet, remember the unexplainable feeling of grief crashing down at potentially losing the option to become someone’s biological mother. All my life, I was told that women are meant to be moms. Who will I be if the future I was supposed to work towards was uncertain?
I was 15 when I watched my mom’s heart break into so many pieces. But she held me with a smile, and held on to her sanity because we had no one else but her. I hated her sacrifice. Because I don’t think I have the capacity to love anyone as unconditionally as she loved her children.
'bye bye baby' is for the sad girls who are torn between maybe I won’t and maybe I can’t.
candle details
candle details
ingredients |
coconut wax, soy wax, 10% phthalate-free fragrance oils |
℮ 6 oz |
wick: eco wick burn time: 30 hours |
℮ 9 oz |
wick: triple-ply wooden wick burn time: 50 hours |
℮ 13 oz |
wick: triple eco wicks burn time: 70 hours |
scent strength guide
subtle | best as a desk candle or small rooms |
medium | best for small to medium rooms |
strong | best for medium to large rooms |
eau de toilette / perfume oil details
eau de toilette / perfume oil details
ingredients | coconut oil, denatured ethyl alcohol, distilled water, tonalid, dipropylene glycol, phthalate-free fragrance oils |
longevity | 2-4 hours |
shelf life | 2 years upon opening |
perfume oil
ingredients | jojoba oil, phthalate-free fragrance oils |
longevity | 3-6 hours |
shelf life | up to 12 months upon opening |
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